toad summer

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Toads in my garden, and toads on my porch. And even a toad in my family room. It seems that everywhere I turn, I am encountering toads – large ones the size of my palm, and small ones about the size of my thumbnail. While weeding the garden I nearly grabbed a large toad in a clump of grass. And when I step out onto the porch I need to tread carefully so I don’t step on the small toads that come out at night. Toads have never been so evident.

So, being interested in animal totems, I naturally wondered what the significance of toads is – what their presence implied in my life.

I learned that the frog and toad totems blend, toad having most of the frog attributes but a few that are uniquely its own.

Frog is primarily about releasing fear through transformation and rebirth – letting go of what no longer has value. Because frog transforms from a water being (tadpole) into an amphibian that breathes air (rebirth), frog bridges the gap between water and earth. Frog medicine will help one integrate water energy and earth energy—being both emotional and grounded – and symbolizes healing at the emotional, spiritual, and physical levels.

Toad’s preference for a dry environment means that it exists primarily on the ground; toad teaches us to stay grounded, to face reality, and to control our emotions so they don’t control us.

Throughout the summer months I have been struggling both on the emotional and physical levels with the intense output of brain power, communication outreach, emotions, and physical effort in contributing to an organization in which I am greatly involved. I feel like I am spinning my wheels and running in non-productive circles. As we approach our eighth year of providing a valuable service, I am burned out and frustrated. It seems that I am existing in a state of perpetual anxiety with my stomach churning and emotions out of whack. I am passionate about what our organization offers, but, it’s difficult being stuck when we have so much vision for moving forward.

So the message from frog and toad is powerful – releasing fear through transformation and rebirth. Not only do I need to examine whether I remain in this spinning vortex, but I need to look at the transformation needed in the organization. If transformation in the organization doesn’t happen, do I allow myself to remain a pawn in the negative emotional and physical impact it has upon me? It’s two-pronged.

So toad reminds me to stay grounded and face reality. Last night I partially stepped on a little toad as I walked out my back door and realized it before I injured it seriously. He seemed a bit stunned, but I moved him to safety, and when I looked a few minutes later, he was gone.
What a metaphor. . .

6 thoughts on “toad summer

  1. Loretta Shatt says:

    Ah….to stay grounded. We all need reminders and dear friends to help us with this from time to time. Being in touch and together with one’s self. Some times all it takes is reading a piece like “Toad Summer” to accomplish this.Thank you Debbie.

  2. Fran Flanagan says:

    Sio insightful, just beautiful thoughts, I know you will have the answer soon!

  3. Mary says:

    Hi Deb… I appreciated receiving this e-mail…. and can relate to your observations esp. the meaning of ‘totems’. As always, you are truly paying attention to your inner voice and guides. I can feel and hear this ‘angst’ you are experiencing. You do give 100 percent plus in any truth you encounter and believe. But as you ascertained already, it is good to step back….let go ….and ask for guidance to re evaluate. Here for you and it would be very good to meet for lunch one day…..I have finally been to “Blue Sage”……maybe that would be good……… Please take good care of YOU Big pats to the ‘girls’…….light and love Mary Date: Sat, 16 Aug 2014 14:51:54 +0000 To: quest84m@msn.com

  4. Karen says:

    Your blogs are always so interesting! I hope you find your answer soon and am sorry that you are in such turmoil.

  5. What a wonderful post this was Debbie..Balance, staying grounded, letting go of what throws off that balance.. Words of advice we can all benefit from. Love your writing..you are so special! Love YOU! ~Hillary

  6. Margot says:

    Love reading your blogs! Thank you so much for sharing!
    Yes we all need that balance, and it is so hard to achieve at times.
    Hope your turmoil is soon resolved. Take care,
    Margot

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