It has been quite awhile since I last posted a blog entry, so I imagine many of you who signed up as followers will be surprised to receive a notification in your email.
In the meantime, I have become active in an online Facebook community for people who wish to nurture and share their creative work or ventures. The Open Group For Bedlam Farm (OGBF) is the brainchild of author Jon Katz who felt it was important to have a safe place for creative people to gather, learn, support, and share. We have quickly become a wonderful community, and many of us are looking forward to meeting each other in person at one of the Bedlam Farm Open House events in 2014. Because of my participation in this community I have considered reigniting the blog, even though I am no longer really on the breast cancer journey except for regular follow-up visits to see Dr. DuPree and my medical and radiation oncologists.
After seeing my radiation oncologist on Monday, I have been thinking about the fact that I do not have cancer. I shared this piece with the OGBF community this morning, and I decided to share it here as well. . . and so it is
I DO NOT HAVE CANCER.
In September of 2012 I was diagnosed with breast cancer. I went through all the preliminary testing, including a biopsy, to confirm that the suspected tumor on the mammogram was cancerous. A lumpectomy followed, and I was very fortunate to learn that my margins were excellent and lymph nodes were clear. The tumor was small, and I was told I was an excellent candidate for the balloon catheter method of radiation. While the catheter itself is invasive, the radiation is less invasive because it is delivered right to the area needing to be addressed. An added bonus was two treatments a day for one week as opposed to a longer time span.
My emotions were on a roller coaster, and, as my wonderful surgeon told me, “Breast cancer is an emotional emergency, not a medical emergency.” I remember the first time I walked into Bott Cancer Center at Holy Redeemer Hospital. ME? No, not ME! But, yes, I was now one of those cancer patients. With the support of wonderful friends, I got through the breast cancer journey, blogging along the way.
Again, I was fortunate that I only needed radiation and no chemotherapy. When it was all over, I thought I would be able to put it all behind me. However, that was not to be. I now visit my three oncology doctors on a regular basis. I see my surgeon every 6 months, and my medical and radiation oncologists less frequently (8-10 months). The doctors are trying to work out a schedule of equally staggered visits, so that I am seeing one of them at least every 4 months.
BUT, as the header to this proclaims, “I DO NOT HAVE CANCER.” I was a breast cancer victim, yes. But I do not have cancer. I had a cancerous tumor removed successfully, but I do not have cancer. Yes, the cancer could reappear, but I do not have cancer. The mind and body connection is powerful, so I chose to accept and believe that I DO NOT HAVE CANCER.
Bill Moyers wrote a wonderful book called Healing And The Mind, which was also produced as a 5 part PBS television series. I was amazed at the power of the mind, and this is why I choose to affirm to myself that I DO NOT HAVE CANCER.
My photograph is a macro of a gorgeous parrot tulip. Pink is appropriate for this post as it is the symbolic color for breast cancer